Growing up in the church, I’ve always known who Jesus is, but it wasn’t until 2013 that I honestly and wholeheartedly gave my life to God. Before I got saved I was literally one foot in the Word and the other foot in the world. I
would go out with friends, get drunk and then after I’d go home and have sex with whoever I was with at the moment. Soon after I would find myself in church feeling guilty about the activities I had just participated in. Although I was living this life, I knew deep inside that this was not the life that I wanted to live. There was something major missing in my life. I tried to fill that void with men who did not love me and only wanted me for my body. I remember crying to God asking Him why He would give me the last name Love although no man ever really loved me. I validated who I was by how people saw and liked me. On the outside I appeared to be happy but inside I was incomplete and miserable.
It’s funny because God comes to you in the most unexpected way yet in a way that He knows you will see Him. Back in 2013, I was social media crazy, I mean to the point where I spent hours on the day look into friends, family and strangers lives. (This is still something I am trying to overcome! Please pray for me! I don’t want to be wasting my life away on social media.) One day while browsing Instgram, I came across a post that read “Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.” Instantly falling in love with the line, I Googled it to find that it was a bible verse! While reading all of Proverbs 31, God began to reveal himself to me. After all these years of being in the church, the words written in the bible finally spoke to me. I was fired up thinking that this is the woman I need to be. I began seeking God and the Word because I knew the only way I could be this Proverbs 31 woman, the woman that God has called me to be, was through Him. It’s crazy because the moment I gave my life to Christ, all of the voids I previously had were instantly filled with God. I let go of the world and gained Christ as my savior.
Had I not experienced the world, I believe I would not have as much understanding of God’s love for me. You see He dragged me out of the storm! Christ showed me that no matter where you are in life you can be saved through a relationship with Him.
Even after getting saved, I’ve fallen short SOO many times and yet Christ’s love for me never fades. He continuously forgives me and makes good of all of the bad I have done. With this blog, I intend to continue to share my journey, connect with others and everything else God lays on my heart.